I Want My Pie Too

I’ve always wondered which one is better, being quiet and moderately reserved or being noisy and outrageously outgoing. Does being quiet and reserved always have a bad connotation? Does it follow that Type A personalities are usually the ones who get to have the first slice of the pie, if not the whole pie? I’d like to think otherwise. Although come to think of it, this is the case most often than not. Some stereotypes are just hard to break isn’t it?

The standard norm these days is to either stand out or get lost. You would have to be more than just a wallpaper if you want to be noticed and be heard. No matter how good you are, you will inevitably get lost in the crowd if you don’t have the "personality" (or should I say the guts) to show what you’re made of. It’s a man-eats-world out there. I’ll surely be eaten alive when put in a room full of Type A people. I can’t bear to compete with such strong personalities. I usually opt to just stay in the background and observe the power playing-attention grabbing or whatever you’d want to call it, take place in front of me. It's more fun. It’s interesting to see how some people want to be in the limelight and be the only star of the show. Take note, the only star. They want nobody sharing the stage with them. It’s just all about them and nobody else. It’s amusing to see how everyone’s furiously trying to grab the attention of a person or of a situation all at the same time.

I don’t have anything against it. It’s perfectly fine with me. As a matter of fact, I’m not one who is comfortable with the spotlight focused on me. I prefer to always fly under the radar…signal can rather be weak and hard to recognize but it’s there, still worthy to catch anyone’s attention. You just have to look closely enough. I guess it’s safe to say that I’m not extremely shy or am I extremely outgoing. I speak up only when I need to. I’ll definitely give you a piece of my mind if I really really feel bad. I do outrageous stuff when I’m comfortable with it. I can be crazy…“walang hiya” (hehe) if I deem it proper.

But then I’m now realizing that I’m not getting all the pie I want. Sometimes I don’t even get to have my share of the pie. I need to be aggressive and grab the pie as soon as it’s out of the oven. Hehe Maybe I should be outrageously loud and be energetically enthusiastic all the time. Maybe I should be perky and act like I've been drinking 12 bottles of Gatorade or something...and speak up even if I don’t have anything to say. Nah, I don’t think it would work out for me... because it wouldn’t be nice at all.